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Had to throw one of the old man in there. Every day is opening day since April 7th. |
I began to notice, to feel in myself, the change weeks
ago. The world has turned upside down in
obvious ways, but my small world has also turned upside down. Most of us, in
theory, are stuck at home, in theory. In
eastern Montgomery County, we are not in shelter in place mode, but we are
supposed to stay at home. I am still
amazed at what counts as essential work, what companies are still
operating. There is a graphics/screen
printing place in town with a lot full of employee’s cars, for example. I hope they are printing for the CDC or
something, perhaps labels for much-needed electronic instruments, federal
contracts? The state parks are closed,
which really just means playgrounds and bathrooms are cordoned off. Even the National
Park at Valley Forge is closed, but plenty of fishing, jogging, biking is
happening. The good things I saw in
March, college age kids out walking with a parent at midday, extended families
on bicycles, things that at first seemed like the silver lining of this
pandemic, they are now starting to impress me less. Perhaps it is because social distancing
works by all accounts, but just under half the country likely thinks it’s
hogwash. I enjoyed fishing on Opening
Day Tuesday with the boy, but I also saw a dozen high schoolers high-fiving and
bro-hugging. Trips to the grocery store
are a gut punch, as older folks avoid you like dinner after 4 PM. I am not too hype to experience either again
anytime soon. My brother, once an OR
nurse now conscripted as an ER nurse in harder hit New Jersey, might have to
avoid his wife, daughter, and mother in law as the spike in cases makes its way
through southern New Jersey. Another
sister in law, a tech at a local hospital must change out of her scrubs in the
shed and shower before hugging her daughter, my 4-year-old niece. I sat outside my mom’s house a couple Sundays ago and
had a visit from six feet apart, ate her zucchini bread and drank her tea, living
on the edge, but I could not hug her goodbye.
Family Zoom for 40 minutes on Easter instead of ham.
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Been replaced with social distancing signs. |
I thought it would be Lukas and Tami bothering me in my
home office, but home is just fine. We
still like each other. Thank goodness,
because the boy’s district, following the governor’s recent presser, has closed
the physical schools for the rest to the academic year. Tami and I already knew that we weren’t going
back in person anytime soon. We kind of
have a schedule, a system, now. The cat
is happy to have the company, and I like being able to get up from grading a
paper and hug my wife at 11 AM. The boy—who
does not mind the virtual learning one iota—and I have done a lot of bike
riding and borderline age-appropriate binge watching together after he’s
completed his daily work. My teaching load
takes longer online, as I have mentioned, and I must hold more online
conferences and attend more online meetings, which are not as satisfying as
in-person meetings, but work has become somewhat normal too. I will get to experience my first virtual
graduation ceremony for the College this year.
I wonder if pants are optional? What
is not normal are all these people in my home away from home office, these
uninvited guests at my Wednesday therapy sessions on the water. I fish socially a lot more than I used to ten
years ago. I enjoy fishing with friends
and even new friends. I enjoy paying
forward the lessons I have learned from others while on the water. But I also fish for the solitude, the
quiet. Everyone has cabin fever now, and
I don’t blame them, but every day is a weekend now for many. I don’t often fish on weekends for the very
reasons that fishing midweek during a pandemic is starting to get on my nerves
now. In the beginning, perhaps hypocritically,
I knew I could fish responsibly, find spots where I would maybe see one other fisherman,
avoid places like Valley—which I avoid anyway once the olives draw the spring’s
first crowds—but now I am always second-guessing. What if I drive an hour to find three other
fishermen’s vehicles in the same siding?
No problem. I drive to the next
spot. But what if the next spot is full
of dogs and bicycles? And so, and so on
it goes. I know this reveals a little
neurosis, and I have been honest about my “fishing agoraphobia” before, but I
am also not naïve.
Not to get too
political, but many fishermen and their politics fall on the side of social
distancing as bullshit, science as subjective, science promoted by government especially
suspect. The boy and I wore our homemade
masks (just doubled buffs, really) up over our faces as we squeezed behind a
family to find some fishing real estate at the local pond, but I saw no other
masks at the pond, not even on old folks or very young kids. Tami watched three Philadelphia police
cruisers roll up on a church in Chestnut Hill that decided to have Palm Sunday
services—so it’s not just Georgia or an Oklahoma State press conference or some
other faraway place where truth and science are subjective. I am not claiming to save lives by staying
home, but I don’t wish unnecessary hardship for anyone, nor do I wish to be
responsible for prolonging or further tightening restrictions, prolonging the
time my brother might have to separate from his family. I need to fish for my sanity, but I also want
this shit to end sooner not later, or at least I want there to be a respirator and
enough supplies waiting for my mom, my friends with preexisting conditions,
myself if things get even more real, and so I am loath to go stand around the
Wissahickon in the two holes that were stocked. When I go out now, the plan is to target
places where I may not see another soul, pack my food and water to avoid Wawas,
even those clean Sheetz bathrooms, bring a mask and hand sanitizer. As it warms, I may have to refresh the batteries
in my headlamp, hone my night game, but 50-year-old eyes in the dark these days,
well. My legs and lungs are better, so I
may see more of the Class A trickles of my younger days. Honestly, I may write fewer posts this
spring, and I will still fish, dammit, but I will try to keep making wise
decisions and respecting people’s fears and concerns, and I hope they do the
same. Stay safe out there, mitches.